♥BabyDevil.E♥

2012-03-09T15:20:00.001+12:00

didnt manage to sleep that long today..sigh..
means the time of him appearing in my dream also lesser~
hais..dhould not be thinking abt all this le..
but sometimes it cannot be control~
since no way to be back together le..
I NEED TO MOVE ON!BUT ITS SO BLOODY HARD UH!

busy day today..
its only friday and the crowd outside marche is so long!
cant imagine how it will be like on weekends..

today at work damn angry siol..
got one aunty keep see me bu shuang..
ask me do this and that!
si lao zhabor! u wait only..
wait until i cannot tahan i sure tell u off de!
whole marche also dun like you la hor.tsk!

MingMing see me so pissed off den he ask me chill..
hahas..he treat me eat marche's tiramisu ice cream ^_^
den wait till 9pm..go break..

Alice baby cannot maintain!
kip bite me from shoulder all the way to my fingertip..
hahas..so ticklish siol! annoying xD

den before work end..got two newcomer ask for my number..
den they tot i same age as them..LOL!
i look like xiaomeimei mehh?haiyo!
all dun belive i turning 19 this yr! =(

headed home and had plain rice with sambal udang flakes and soya sauce..
had a weird dream too..

dreamt that W.G help T.E chushi..
den when chushi that time kip see him flirt with other gal..
den in front of me kiss and hug gal..whoa..
the feeling damn real siol.

den suddenly the dream change..
back in sku performing lion dance for roadshow..
den i was wearing tube so i just wear the lion dance shirt over..
den all the guys keep stare stare..LOL.
den get ready to perform..
but teacher in change become my dance teacher in charge instead of Mr alex!
den when going to perform le..
Zhisheng, Cedric, Marcus all suddenly gone!
whoa..den jiu slowly wake up le..

hope the upcoming roadshow wun screw up =/

2012-03-08T03:28:00.000+12:00

2nd day of work!~
whoa..nearly late today cuz of mom!
keep ask me do this do that for her..
den miss bus etc..
but manage to reach workplace just on time! (:

when changing into uniform..
Bestie said said..
"girl ah,u see..now thin until can see ur collar bone liao,must eat more!"
hahas..is not i thin until can see collar bone..
is urs not visible due to fats =P

den she saw the scratches on my arm den ask wad happen..
i tell her i also duno what happen..
it just appear there on its own den she smack my head D:
serious lo..i really duno how i got it either..
this few days keep havin bruise and scratches on me..
duno how i got them.

got invited to attend Marche's D&D event on the 20th..
but duno whether i should go anot ley sigh..
if i go, den i am the only part timer there..
cuz they invited me due to my long service in Marche..
hahas..feel honoured uh.
came to think of it..i had been working for 1yr5months le siol..
time pass so fast!~

2 days of night shift down..
9 more days to go!
this month damn busy...all my off days used for training/performance..
got off days= no off days~

13 march: Meetup in sku do props + Working
14th March: Working
15th March: Check up at NUH + Working
16th,17th March: Working
18th march:Janelle's birthday celebration
19th march: Rehearsal for story-telling + CCA
20th march: D&D
21st March: Working
22th march: Rehearsal for story-telling + Work
23th march: Working + CCA
24,25th March: Working
26th March: Set up of props + CCA
27th March: Story telling @ Sarada Kindergarten
28th March:Story telling @ Sarada Kindergarten
29,30 March: Working
1st april: Working
2nd April: Working + CCA
3rd April: Working + CCA
4th april: Working
5th april: Gathering @ ECP
6th april: Working +CCA
7th april: LAST DAY OF WORK
9th April: School Reopen!

Jiayou to myself..earn more money! ^_^

2012-03-07T16:48:00.000+12:00

Start of holiday!
First day of work back in Marche..hahas..
all of them surprise to see me return to work(:
the moment i enter, Clement jiu call Johnson liao..
aiyo...paiseh ttm! D:
den he wanted eat supper with me but i reject..

started work..work form 5-10pm..
but abit sad ley..all the parttimer in my batch de all quit liao D:
Charol nvr work cuz hand injured..
all those besties all on leave!
guess what? I tio night shift for 11 days straight..
cuz not enough ppl to do night..awesome la sial..
so catch me at vivocity at night from today till next sat.haha(:

got to know two newcomer too..
all from uni..one is to be economist in future, another is to be doctor..
LOL! of all places..choose marche to work..
break at 9pm den went to smoking corner slack..
tok with mingming..haix..
all not going renew contractle..
maybe i should also find new job liao!

bused home after work..
kip tio spam by msg and tweets..like a scary only!
den feel damn down due to some matter uh..
texted with Jefferson..hmms..
didnt really help much but at least its better to say out everything..
went to sleep after that~

2012-03-06T01:53:00.001+12:00

Back to blogging!
this few days nvr blog cuz exam..
and i need some time to adjust my feelings..
hmms..glad that everything is fine now(:
learn to let go alrdy..hehes(:

now waiting for this scar to heal..hmms..

last day of exam today!^_^
went to eat Seoul Garden..
with Roy,Janelle,Emily,Suhaidah,Syafiqah,Sharifah & Si Xuan at TM today..
hahas..ages since i last ate seoul garden..
Roy,Janelle,emily, sixuan and me went to seoul garden first..
while the rest went to pray~
spend a total of $125 for the 5 of us~

keep eating siol..gonna be fat sial!
after awhile, emily left with her friend, left the 7 of us.
den they keep play with the food.xD
one thing i learnt today: Nvr sit beside Roy..
he keep place food for you to eat de.LOL!

After dinner,the 4 of us went to walk walk..
while syafiqah, suhaidah & syafiqah cont eat..
went to T1,Century Square den back to TM again..
hahas..cuz i nvr go tampines before..
den the jiu pei me walk walk ^_^
such friends where to find?:)

went to Toys R Us..hahaahhaha!
had lots of fun there..Roy & I kip hit each other with the ball, sword & hammer XD
saw one huge teddy bear near the entrance..damn cute!!!!
den passed by one shop forget the name..
got one star pendant damn nice! the price also nice $699 D:

went to timezone after that..
long time since i last went arcade..
wan play DDR de but paiseh uh..
the rest of them also duno how to play..
den jiu play air hockey.LOLs xD

headed home after that..
whoa..now den i understand the feelin of travelling from tampines to bukit batok..
so tiring sey!

back to work at marche(vivocity)tmr..from 5pm-10pm.
hope everything will tun out well (:
Back in my yellow uniform..hahaa..

thats all for today(:

2012-02-28T18:58:00.001+12:00

M.I.A for the time being..

Don't bother contacting me.

Takecare All Readers.

Loves,Eileen.T

2012-02-27T03:00:00.000+12:00

First day of intensive revision..
wapiang eh..can die siol!
TCC revision from 8-12 in the morning..
super bored..den started doddling on my book..LOL
now full of baby's name..haha!
ugh..hate mock exam!
confirm fail le~

break for 1 hr..
den DC revision..
was suppose to end at 5..
but no poinr staying when my heart isnt there right?
so i tell teacer to release me at 4pm..
haha..end up she release at 3.30 ^_^

headed to machperson for training..
wanted to give baby a gift de..
but ytd went to find all so expensive =(
den end up suddenly in mrt tot of an idea..hehes..
but macham like no sincerity=/

wrote him a small note(:

J efferson Goh Zheng Kai
E xtremely in love with this boy
F ate brought us together
F orever stand a place in my heart
E venthough we are distance apart
R eally appreciate all that u've done
S weetest guy i ever met
O n my mind 24/7
N o matter what happens between us, ILY

if i got money confirm do something better de=(
hope he treasure it eventhough its a small piece of trash=/

after training..
he send me home for the last time...
damn heartpain..
he like so tired and feeling unwell..
yet he insisted to send me home..
den gonna travel back from bukit batok to tampanies..
hais! =(
but oh well..promise him to stay happy de..*Hook finger*
i nvr cry out too!(:

before our status change from r/s to good friends..
held his hand for the last time..
embrace his hug for the last time..
thanks for everything. ILY.

2012-02-26T02:38:00.000+12:00

had been going in and out of hospital lately..
totally hate the feeling of being in it..
sigh...why not just take my life away lurh..
medical bills like a high only..
current motto: Life's short. enjoy life while you can. Worry abt money later!~

went to celebrate Barkat's birthday today.(:
meet Barkat & Shirley.,
den went to Jurong point meet J.Ng for lunch..
tok abt recent stuffs during lunch..
ages since I last meet them..
got so much to update!!!

hahas..den duno who made a "Cigg" using the receipt and tape..
lol! like a real cigg siol..
kept it as a reminded for me not to smoke anymore!

i dun wan make ppl worry le..
especially baby..
alrdy caused him too much stress liao...
really happy things work out in the end..
i dun care what others say, i only know i 'm in love with you..
nothing's gonna pull me away from you!

after lunch..
walk walk around searching for some things while J.ng went to work..
been to alot of shop..
but nothing seems to caught my eye..
if not jiu is too expensive..
hais..why liddat?! =(

headed to Barkat house after that..
saw the litte boy, Rishi!
i miss him so much..so happy to see him..
took pics with him too ^^
dinner at her house..
had yong tao foo soup, crab, prawn & potato cutlet..
like nice only!(:
but guess i ate too much prawns uh..
now itching all over~ D:

cabbed to Party World KTV @ CityVibes..
sang for like 2hrs?
den head home after that~~

Barkt & Shirley wanna work at marche leyy..
might be skipping sku pei them go workplace for their interview next fri =P
haha..if really they got selected..
den got ppl pei me work liao..not so bored liao (:

2012-02-24T20:29:00.002+12:00

on the verge of breaking down again..
no..i promise that silly boy i am not going to cry..
here i am blogging out those thoughts running through my head..

was so happy about ytd that i keep thinking abt it till this morning..
but good things come to an end,don't they?
i just didnt expect it to end so fast..
we were still chatting so happily in the morning..
just before everything falls apart..

receive that msg from him that i nvr wished to see..
sigh..cannot be together due to religion stuff..
it hurts..really hurts..
maybe its fate all along..
unable to receive my texts..msgs from you gone..
now we have to part due to you being kun cheong..

after seeing it,i just feel so sad..
confide to Janelle abt what happen..
so sudden..

but its okay..i understand de..
if being seperated could do best for the both of us..
why not? =')
dun wanna add more stress to him le..
i will leave..so that he can forget abt me (:
eventhough everything might seems bleak right now..
i will continue to wait till a miracle happens..
at least i still got that star necklace..
a gift from you..gonna treasure it..
now till forever.

2012-02-23T21:29:00.002+12:00

feel alot better this morning..
so headed to school...
finally started on my revision..
manage to complete 3 chapters for TCC!
gonna mug hard for exam! (:

Also got to know abt the GEP thingy..
still wondering shouold i sign up for it..
based on my records and studies..
can stand a high chance..
but will have to leave the country =/
mixed feelings..

ended school..
waited for Jefferson to come find me..
that silly boy..make me wait for 1hr siol!
but he bought me tiramisu (:
not so angry..hehe!^_^
wonder how he know that i like tiramisu..hahas..

headed to MP with him after that..
hehe..he help me carry the box of stuff to CCA room..
trained home after that..
he send me home too..so sweet eh!

but after awhile he need leave le..cuz he meeting his fren..
and he actually put my birthdate as his pw.LOL!!!
bump into Kelvin too..shy die me..
kelvin say he very ah beng..
but quite shuai...hahah!

love holding his hands..
first time he hug and kissed me..hehes..
such a wonderful feeling(:

i really hope all this will last..
ILOVEYOU! ^_^

2012-02-22T23:21:00.002+12:00

Finally all my projects are completed!(:
really hope to get a good grade for the learning corner..
all projects done...time to focus on revision for exams..
which is just 2 weeks away!=/

been feeling unwell lately..
having throat ulcer, flu and abit of fever D:
worse still..my phone sot D:

after that women touch my phone..
everything gone..awesome..
all the precious 2000+ msg..
not even one is left..
fucking cried uh =(

worse..whatsapp also not working..
whole day cannot chat with that silly boy..
mood went down down down!~
no mood eat..but oh well..
life goes on right?
so tried my best to pretend it didnt matter at all..

went back class aftet lunch @ cafe Galilee..
was suppose to start on revision..
yet the 2hrs..emoing the whole period.
the sudden empty feeling..
make me reflect..
maybe its hinting me something..
maybe this is the period wherby i should focus.

al this just make me feel..hmms..idk how to describe..
upon knowing i am sick..
Jefferson wanna meet me tmr..
bring me see doctor..he damn sweet eh!

but i rejected him..ask him dun come down..
eventhough it hurts me too..
i know this will be the best decisiion uh..
really want to be embrace in his hug..
wanna hold his hand that give me a sense of warmth and security..
but i know i cant..
the more i see him..i sure will fall in love even more de..
nononono..must maintain.

i cant afford to lose my focus when exams is so near..
gonna treat this as a test between us.
if true love do exist..all this wun matter de bah..
but somehow somwhere..u will always be in my heart..
missing you always.

2012-02-15T01:12:00.000+12:00

The 3rd day of the week and i am collapsing soon..

day 1:
i am officially broke.
dad's lost in betting and now relying on my savings..
which is less than $200..
lucky i got saving if not jialat!!!
den to save money jiu nvr eat..
Stomach cramp till very jialat siol..
den make me feel so nausea D:
stayed back in sku to do filming of my puppet presentation.
our performance kinda screw up at the beginning..
keep NG D:
went to CCA after that..
rushed home after CCA cuz something screw up again!~
so i stayed up late to finish the bloody project.haiz..burden ah!

day 2:
red puffy eyes..feel so cranky the whole day!
supposed to be valentine's day..but Syazwan called it "Happy Tuesday"..
got gifts from various people (:
received a necklace..lollipops and chocolate!(:
love the necklace ttm! ^_^
gonna treat it as my lucky charm~
had ENT presentation today..
damn nervous!!!!
but lucky got that silly boy to pei me text till presentation time(:
hope it will turn out fine (:
feel so bless to know a guy like him..
after knowing i short of cash..
he transferred money to me eh..
such a sweet guy!!! (:

day 3:
feeling down. 15th of the month..
last year, we are still so sweet..
now..u no longer belong to me anymore.
well, life goes on isn't it?
moving on..

eyes still abit weird so wore specs again..
LOL..bump into Don but he dun reconize me in specs ;x
saw one of andy's post..
sigh, forget abt me uh. u deserve better.
got an angbao from janelle's mom too..really thanks alot!(:
had our puppet performance today..
damn nervous..wore my lucky charmto sku for good luck!
and it really brought me luck!
was selected to perform at a childcare during march holiday (:
hahas,got the honour to represent sku means standard should be good right?
hehe..my grades confirm steady liao uh (:
finally two burden down..one more to go!

*You asked..
what do you stand in my heart?
I honestly don't know.Definitely better than friends?
all i know is...
being with you make me feel so happy..
you're somebody that understand me so well
being there for me everytime..
helping me ease my burden..
change me for the better..
giving me a wonderful feeling nobody has ever given me and i really thank you for that.
Xie Xie Ni, Jefferson Goh Zheng Kai

2012-02-07T00:29:00.000+12:00

damn sleepy today!=(
5 hrs of sleep definitely not enuf for me!
went to sku..
finish up ENT proposal..
i feel like a sotong lor!
didnt know excel can do autosum =/
waste my time calculating!

did puppets for TCC too!~
hope to get good grades for it..
haiz..this few days..
project so many!!
haven even revise for exam..

hpe my GPA wun drop..
must maintain 3.0 & above!!

thats all bah..
feeling sleepy..
saw smth online that i find it so damn true!
"Sometimes, it's easier to pretend you don't care than to admit that it's killing you. "
yea..so i'm gonna pretend everything is alright!

2012-02-05T22:14:00.002+12:00

woke up damn late today..
ytd keep tossing and turning in bed..
duno whats wrong with me either..
woke up..
went for lunch with kelvin..

headed home to do my assignment after that!~
watch" the pacifier" with kelvin..
wow..the show damn nice ley..i like! ^_^

got a call from godma..
she say wanna come down meet me and my bro..
so went to westmall meet her for dinner..
got an angbao from her too!
when i open i jiatao shock!

even my mom nvr give so much lor..
she gave me $50..
fel so gan dong..
she travel from mountbatten to bukit batok..
just to find me and have dinner with me..
and she is close to 65 yrs old alrdy! ='(

i swear she's even better than my real family..
taking care of me ever since i was a baby till primary one..
when my parents just dumo me to her..
GODMA I LOVE YOU! (:

2012-02-04T22:57:00.002+12:00

one week since i last blog!
the new members from jan intake came cca on monday..
wow..didnt expect so many ppl to turn up..
kinda duno what to do =/
i kinda suck at interacting..
so heard from the rest that most thinks i am fierce..
LOL.but when u get to know me more..
u will know that i actually very friendly de!

hopefully monday's training will be better..
and i hope that andy dun piss me off any further!~
i swear one more time i sure cry liao lor =/

lifeskill presentation was a sucess i think..
although there were some conflict here and there..
manage to sort things out..
guess i should learn to be stronger..
cannot keep cry liao.

topping out ceremony after that..
so proud to be the 1st batch of students to step into the new campus!(:
eventhough its tired, but super hsppy to see ite lion dance improving tremendously!
jiayou everyone! prove to the rest that we can make it de, not cui de!

gonna take this chance to thank one junior as well..
all this while when i am feeling so depress..
he always cheer me up..
feel so heartwarming to receive his text everytime..
thank you! (:

2012-01-28T20:30:00.002+12:00

sick for 3 days alrdy..sigh..
i want faster recover go dong dong cheng! =(

anyway, something weird happen ytd night..
i woke up in the middle of the night..
toking in my sleep and shouting!
first time such things happen to me..
kinda got scared and tears just kept flowing down my cheeks..
was trying to recall what happen but cant seem to recall ley..

den when i woke up this morning..
temperature damn high..
no choice, got to go see doctor le.
was trying to keep myself steady cuz feeling very faint..
after see doctor jiu went to sleep till afternoon..

woke up, did some of the assignments..
sian la..seems like its never ending siol =/
oh well..hopefully i can finsh everything by next week..
so that i could start revision for exam!

2012-01-24T23:59:00.005+12:00

day 2 of CNY!
this yr totally no mood to celebrate..
loaded with so much projects..how to enjoy?!
worse..parent ytd keep quarrel..
wapiang eh..cannot maintain..

stayed at home the whole day..
doing all the assignments..
did subject web, 3 lesson plans and completed my part for ENT..
left with:
-5 follow up activity for TCC
-lifeskill booth,proposal,powerpoint
-ENT proposal & Presentation
-Book review
-Chushi on 3rd feb (:

got texts from wisely and andy..
asking me to go out..
but lazy and weather very hot..
so i didnt went~
didnt expect them to come over to my blk siol..
they bought tiramisu for me and brought it all the way to my blk..
just to make me cheer up..
really thanks alot!(:

bought vodka..

walao eh..the auntie dun belive i 19..
let her see IC le still use calculator calculate..
i got so XMM mehh?

went home to eat steamboat..
only me and kelvin in the house..
totally no feel at all~
dad go chusai, mom duno go where..
oh well..glad that tmr going back to sku..
so that i wun be so bored (:

2012-01-20T03:36:00.000+12:00

this few day kinda terrible..
feeling suicidal..
the moment when i knew things wun be the same anymore..
there's no way things will ever get back like how it was in the past..

didnt went school ytd..
down with viral flu..
doc say must rest well but oh well..
headed back to sku today.LOL

went to dairy farm nature park..
for a nature trail..
means walking in the jungle like place with those digusting logs and weird noise..
scary max and the weather making me faint!
headed to botanic garden for de brief..
den rush down to macpherson ITE.

today's opening of eco garden..
sigh..lucky got enuf ppl to chushi if not jiu jialat!
i sick still tahan all the way ley..*clapclap*

rushed to jurong ponit meet parents shop for CNY..
damn..everytime with mom sure quarrel de..
i really wish i wasn't born in the god damn family!

den worse is..
my phone batt suddenly flat when i was receiving msg from joanne, kai & Weijie..tmd!
headed home..online..
chatted with wisely for awhile*happy happy*
thats all bah
hope tmr will be better!

2012-01-15T00:40:00.001+12:00

Went to watch "WE not naughty" with kelvin today..
i am such a gd sister.LOL
was suppose to go uot with Jonathan to pei him shop CNY clothes..
but nvr cuz bro wanted me to pei him.

saw boon @ arcade so went to tok with him awhile..
hahaz..ages since i last saw him..
when see dao him in arcade..
all those memories flooded back =/

texted wisely..
hmms..hope he recover soon..
got the urge to go find him..
but i dun tink he will wanna see me after all those things..
so didnt went..

headed home..
head damn pain..went to sleep..
oh! and i finally made up with Joanne..
past is past..glad to have a fren instead of a foe(:

hectic week next week..
monday:sku + CCA training
tuesday: CCA roadshow + training
wednesday: sku + Presentation
thursday: sku + Check up @ NUH
Friday: heritage trail

cant wait for CNY!~

2012-01-07T04:45:00.001+12:00

the last weekend before sku reopen!~
actually was suppose to go out with weijie, tengseng de..
but they gt chushi..so nvr go out in the end!
so looking forward to it lurh..
weijie going enlist soon..also duno when can go out together =(
sad die me..

end up stayed at home..
do spring cleaning..
hahas..dad got shock..
first time see me do so many things..
aiya..cuz too bored liao D:

went to take a nap..
woke up..craving for KFC..
went down with kelvin to get it..
hmms..saw a guy that super look alike to weijie eh!
immeditely text him ask if it was the guy i saw..
sadly, its not..
hmms..maybe is tink too much liao uh.

went home and online..
wapiang eh..got one person..
cannt stand him siol..
keep pester me ask me give number to him..
den i nvr give say i very dao den block me!
wth sial..dun wan give means dun wan give la..
such a despo!~

that al bah..
hate the arrival of monday..
sku reopen= projects!CCA!

2012-01-02T03:19:00.002+12:00

long time since i last blog eh..
hmms..alot of event happening so nvr blog!~

went to Chinatown with Dad & mom today..
gosh, so tired from work..
didnt wanted to go..wanna sleep.
but dad drag me along..
so no choice..went with them..

wow..long time since i last went there..
so many ppl! hate the crowd..
walk walk awhile to see some CNY stuff..
found one stall quite interesting!
they do ur name in the form of flowers and animals..
so freakin nice!

headed to 佛牙寺 after that..
dad told me that is the biggest temple in SG..
not bad..still got air con in the temple..hahaha..

went to have dessert @ the hawker centre nearby..
had by favourite dessert! Mango with sago and pomelo (:
walk walk awhile more..headed home after that..

reached home..
watch smurf & 龙虎门 till dinner time..
had curry fish head for dinner!

thats all bah..
tis week gonna be a busy week for me!
tues:visit to NUH
wed:make up lesson for TCC
thurs & Fri: CCA training
Sat: meet up with Weijie, Tengseng (Hopefully!)
sun: prepare for sku the next day!~

heading to NUH tmr..hope everything will be fine~

2011-12-24T03:51:00.000+12:00

Rest day today! Xmas eve (:

headed to vivo with BFFs..
met them around 2 plus?
got a text from danson..
he said he saw me, but i nvr see him leyy! =/
piang eh, till now all those ppl saw me but i nvr see them before.creepy.

headed to The Mussel Guys for lunch!
first time went there to eat..
hmms..food is not bad!~

craving for dessert so went to Marche..
whoa. still nid queue up =/
tink tmr confirm die..working from 4-10pm and its XMAS!

Ktv after that..
hahas..had loads of fun in there(:
keep singing our clique song xD
den that stupid guy keep throw the pillows at me!=(
pain till i cry siol! nw eyes abit bruise D:

watched sherlock holmes after that..
awesome movie!(:
headed home after that..
whoa today seriously spend alot of money, nid maintain abit.LOL
dead tired to blog..
pics uploaded in fb! (:

2011-12-18T03:40:00.000+12:00

busy week that i had!~
have been working for nearly a week alrdy..
went to support dad's saiguan @ toa payoh stadium ytd!
they compete UV dragon.got the 5th position~
not bad le la..got put in effort jiu hao! ^_^

saw nick at thr..LOL!
cant reonized him until he say hello to me..
omg he damn tall! i tio shock siol~~
he super different from fb sial..more handsome in real life..kekes..
saw that guy too..didnt expect to saw him..
but oh well..one of my best night ever! :)

headed to Aunty mama's house today..
feel so happy to be back there again..
the place where i grew up..
the woman that took care of me till pri 1..
she cooked alot of food..oh my god!
super nice..
ate liao went to sleep while..

headed to work after that..
got the shock of my life.
Wisely's mum working there also..
kinda chatted abit..but awkward.
oh well..promised him to takecare of his mom..
so yea..dun worry!
seeing her all those memories flash back..
how i wish everything could go back to how perfect it used to be.

thats all bah..
long day ahead tmr!

2011-12-13T01:51:00.000+12:00

Back to work in marche today!
whoa..everyone so into Xmas mode...
now even need wear Xmas hat siol..hhahahahaha!
happy to see them again!espicially Shida! (:

work from 11-5pm today..
got to know some newcomer in marche..
a guy name Syed tot i was an indonesian..LOL!
chatted awhile den charol came..
hohoho...miss her so damn much! (:
got a gift from her too!(:

bad thing abt this week..
working night shift whole week sial!
working from 6pm-10pm. D:
plus, currently sick again..
having running nose and diarhhoea =(
lucky tmr rest if not jialat!~

hope tmr will be better~~

2011-12-08T01:57:00.000+12:00

Back to training on monday!
bump into Xun & syazwan on the way there..
hhaa..awkward.
whoa..got a shock when i reached. only 6 ppl turn up =/
worse, none of the lion head/tail came.
end up only practise drum and cymbal.
discussed abt CCA roadshow & Gathering...
gathering will be held on the 30 dec!(:

gave sku a miss on tuesday..
was having a fever in the morning..
slept till afternoon..feel alot better..
so went to meet BFF..
watched Breaking Dawn @ plaza singapura..
freaking awesome!
got one part damn hilarious..
When the background music showing Bella turning into a vampire stopped..
someone's ringtone rang. It was Justin Bieber's "Baby".
LMAO XD

hesded back to sku on wednesday..
got a shock. so many assignments for the holidays!
tot i could enjoy my holiday but...tsk! =(
groupwork somemore..hate it!
got the grades for ENT proposal too(:
was super happy with the grade we've got.
at least hard work paid off ^_^
cant diclosed the actual grade yea..
so those that knew it..it was a hoax.bleh~

nth much today..
went to sku to take LPD..
did some of the stuff for road show too (:
Best thing abt today:
feel so great to have Ms Audrey Hoy as one of my teacher ♥
was so surprised today when she came to ask about how i feel..
when she came across those status that i wrote..
telling me that i could always confide in her if needed.
Those feelings in my heart cant be decribed..
didnt know that somebody actually care and bother so much about how i feel..
apart from those friends i have.
Thank You, Loves ♥

lesson at 12 tmr,last day of sku.
gonna present he zoo trip ppt..
out of 5 ppl, 3 not coming.
kill me please. hope everything can go on smoothly.

2011-12-03T02:23:00.000+12:00

Hectic week i had this week!
hmms..
went to Hay Dairies goat farm on monday..
gosh..the smell is so damn powerful..
not gonna go there anymore!
but the goats are cute though..hehe! (:
headed back to sku for flashmob dance practice..

had S&W theory test on tuesday..
1st time taking it..
thought it will be difficult but turns out to be all MCQ questions xD
confirm pass de lor!~

Flashmob dance @ changi city point on wednesday..
was so excited as this is the first time dancing with over 80 students
however, there is a glitch though..
but oh well, enjoyed myself ttm that day!
susu injured her leg while dancing..
haiz..hope she recover soon. God bless!
seeing those guys helping her to the bus kind feel awesome..
my class mates was so caring..
i wonder if i am the one injured, will they still help me? hmms..
had sushi as a reward after the dance (:

Zoo trip on thursday!
tis is the second time i went to the zoo..
oh my..t has changed since i last went there when i was less than 12 years old.
thought i could enjoy myself but no..
the trip is suppose to let us collect info for the next assignment! D:
gonna do a presentation on monkeys & plantation etc..
reached home around 7plus in the evening..
slept lke a log after that~

hope next week wun be so tough..
oh and i finally got a model site at this URL:
http://sg.modelbooth.com/eileen.tey17

do check it out!(:

2011-11-27T00:16:00.000+12:00

woke up at 6am today..sunday somemore!
went to have breakfast at mac..
went home & start on book review & research for DC..
went back to sleep till 2pm..
haha..i am such a heavy sleeper xD

woke up..
dad went to work..
kelvin went to work..
sian! leave me alone..
watch 11.11.11 to pass time..

packed my room after that..
came across my old photo..
wow..realise i change alot over the period of 6yrs..
those old days..always got bullied cuz i am ugly etc..
being called by nasty names..hurling bottles at me by those guys..

glad that all this not happening in ITE alrdy..
others might still think i am ugly..
but at least i know..i've change for the better and i am happy abt it(:
Not gonna let those negative comment affect me anymore.

2011-11-23T00:24:00.001+12:00

things didnt well so well today..
was damn sleepy the whole day..
got back my grades for story telling..
got a freaking 'C'..omg!
seriously need to buck up alrdy D:

worse!
lecturers implemented new sets of rules to follow..
all students are to surrender their hps before every lessons..
this means... I CANT FREAKING TEXT DURING CLASS ANYMORE D:
so people..if i reply msg late dun blame me uh! =P

stayed back in sku to complete the ryhme thingy which is due tmr~
change and headed to earm my fast cash..hohoho!
not bad not bad..today earn myself $30 (:
took pics too..LOLOLOLOL..uploadede in fb (:
so tired...shall head to bed nw!~

2011-11-22T10:24:00.002+12:00

Shall blog before i go sku..
have been busy with sku assignments lately..
so glad that DC project ended ytd..
nw lest with ENT..
which i tink my grp will screw up since nth concrete is being discussed..
worse..deadline is tmr!~
all this just make me giving sku a miss..
i dun like facing ppl who keeps isnt serious abt work =/

texted with WJ but kinda attitude him that make us stop texting..
ugh...as much as i wanted to reply, i dun want to see a day where all hell break loose between us..

went to take a nap..
dreamt abt him..weird dream i had~.
the dream goes like this..
i accompany him to see doc as he is sick..
bump into dad on the way..
he was shock to see me with him..
explain to dad then went to his house..

got drench in the rain so went to his house to change..
funny that in this dream he was such a nice guy..
best is no sex-related stuff being mention.LOL
saw an elderly and he wanted to take a walk..
so me and him took him out for a walk..
heard somebody callin him asking him to stay away from me..
and he did..kinda sad thst i woke up from the dream =(

checked my phone to see if got his reply..
but turns out to be a msg from xun..
sigh..thats all bah..
heading to sku now~

2011-11-17T20:47:00.002+12:00

did my story telling today..
was damn nervous in the morning omg D;
den suddenly feel my phone vibrated and check..
turns out to be a msg from WJ..
haha! everytime i nervouse or bored sure will receive his msg de.LOL
but thx uh..make me less nervous(:

finally it's my turn..
story telling went on smoothly..
just need to take note of my grammar =/
cont texted the whole day..

got to know smth from S...
u misunderstood the feelings and say hurtful words to her abt me!
alright, i knw i might not be the good looking girl..
and the truth hurts.
sometimes, i just wish everyone just keep their comments to themselves.
felt so down.
kinda ashamed to faced you aymore.

after a long priod of time,
i realise it isnt really a crush.
its just that u meant smth to me,
but its defitely not LOVE.

headed to CCK ite after tat..
atended a talk about entreprenuership that make me wanna sleep..
seriously, business and i dont click.
glad that the talk ended early..
headed home after that~

2011-11-09T01:03:00.000+12:00

i am still busy with project though =/
let's see what projects i have on hand right now~
-Personalised book due on 15th nov
-TCC test on 15th Nov
-Book Review 2
-Story telling
-ENT business proposal
-DC's making of the resource kit
-DC's 1pg write up for the rationale behind making the kit for the age group
-Lifeskill's project
it's like nver gonna end.FML.

school was quite a breeze today..
no lesson as Ms claire was on Mc and Ms Mag wasn't around too..
attended a talk on Sex..LOLOL
headed back to class to work on the resource kit till 1pm..

sometimes i wonder to myself..
what's the point of doing so much while the rest isnt feeling grateful at all?
seriously, if all of u are competent enough..
will i still try to do everythin by myself?
time is slipping away sooner as all of us think..
u could have actually start on it..but you keep chatting away..
in the end nth's done! awesome..

nearly flare up but controlled myself..
can alrdy feel the tears welling up on me but manage to controlled eventually.
nth much left to say..
headed back home after that.

I AM OFFICIAL BROKE TOO!~

2011-11-05T23:49:00.002+12:00

kinda busy to update tis blog of mine..
here goes..

got a msg from lawrence ytd say he discharge le(:
glad to hear that..must hao hao tc urself le ah!

went to meet up with my grp members @ IMM..
shop for project stuffs @ daiso..
walk for awhile and farah started to ask me who's that guy..
alamak siol! suddenly all wanna know.. shy to say..

headed to the sky garden to to project till 1pm..
bused home after that~
wanted to start on my project..
but dad and kelvin dun wanna let me use! FML

went to sleep after that..
woke up around 3 plus tis morning..
woke up with tears in my eyes..
the dream was so wonderful..
but when i realise its just a dream i couldnt help but sob..
if only thing were as perfect in real life.

it took place in the class..
everyone was playing so happily..
acidentally bump into him and fall ..
he grab for me and both of us blush..
started to talk to each other..
school ended and it starts to rain..
he sheltered me under his umbrella.

ya..me and my silly thoughts that is so not gonna happen..
deep down in my heart i know u will nvr fall for an ugly gal like me..
it hurts..when u kept saying abt other gals..
but its alright(:
i shall just keep everything to myself, pretending it doesnt hurt at all (:

2011-10-31T23:32:00.003+12:00

31st oct 2011~
Celebrated Halloween in sku today!
damn fun..hahas..
1st time really celbrare with make up,costume and all!
Had fun dressing up and posing for photos..

dressed up as a dead doll(:
took pic with Emily too!

wanted to go the haunted house organised by the BL..
but damn lots o ppl!~
gave up and went back to class enjoy air con..

remove make up and proceed to continue with projects..
seriously damn tired..so gave CCA a missed..
stayed back to wait for emily to finish her project..
carless me!Phone gone from my sight i also Duno..
inside full of conversations..
hope JunHao & Xun didnt saw anything in my phone just now..sigh.=/

headed home after that!~
Fun day i had today (:

2011-10-29T02:31:00.000+12:00

Went out with J.Lin today(:
ages since i last met up with him..hahas..
actually still got Shirley de..
but she no money..so left me and J.lin!~
got to know smth as well..
so much for being BFF eh?
got twitter nvr tell me!sadddddddddddd =(

met J.lin at 3pm..
went to Cathay..
wanted watch at Cineleisure de..
but too much ppl..
pei him eat popoye's..
walk walk around..
went to watch the movie"In time"
the show damn nice!! ^_^

walked to *scape after that..
cuz he want to find earpiece..
saw Feodore's booth too..
kinda shy walking there..
as that group of ppl dont talk with me in sku=/
hope their sales is good(:

walk walk around..
sa alot of ppl dressed up for halloween..
hahas..cant wait for monday!
celebrating in sku (:

Back to HMV..
pei him pre-order album..
headed home after that(:

2011-10-26T02:16:00.000+12:00

everything is going too fast like seriously..
kinda suffocating under all the projects i have!=(
lets see..

alphabet book is suppose to hand up next tues..
till now,we only manage to do the letters..

laminating was supposed to be completed by tmr but smth crop up..
so we've got to figure out what to do!=/

worse still!
tmr me & wawa involve in helping out for some event..
Xun wun be able to come sku due to O level..
my group only left with 2 ppl how to finish?!
weekend all no time..
seriously..i cant help but to panic =(

besides all this..
i've still got other projects on hand!
1)Re-draw brainstorm web on A3 paper by 11nov
2)discuss abt leson plan 3 and have it type out.by 21st nov
3)do the 3 resource kit to teach children numeracy
4)head to thomson plaza to collect CWS merchendise on 2nd Nov
5)Bake cookies to sell on 4th Nov
6)set up booth in sku to sell CWS merchandise on 4th Nov
7) start on 2nd book review

all this made me feel so depress!
i've been doing so much yet still got so many things not done =(
got so stres that having headache for 3 day..
cant afford to miss lesson so nr go see doc..
at this rate i am going..
i can say i am gonna be dead any time.

2011-10-14T02:24:00.000+12:00

A busy week that i had this week..
finally got time to blog!
things didnt go well this week =(

quarreled with mom on ytd's morning..
quarrel till i cry and ran out of the house..
first time that i cant control my emotions =/
went to school with a heavy heart~

was supposed to have workshop after sku ytd..
but i didnt attend as my stomach hurts damn badly!
went to have it check it out..
turns out that my peptic ulcer condition became worse.
doc say cannt put too much stress on myself.
sigh..if only things were easy for me to handle~~

went to sleep and woke up for sku today..
had a wonderful dream abt HX(oyster)..hahaha!
gosh..i must stop myself from tinking abt it..
gotta concentrate on studies!
no lovey dovey stuff till i manage to get a GPA of 3.5!

got my certificate from ITE today..
kinda happy!hope to produce better result this term~
really feel stress ever since the start of this term..
more and more projects and assignment piling up..
>essay on Einstein
>Book review
>DC assignment 1
>journal writing
>lifeskills project

gosh..can die siol!
but at least i make use of the time and completed most of the stuff alrdy..
hope whatever i did isnt wrong =/
i wanna get a good GPA this term!
thats all bah~~

2011-10-07T17:26:00.001+12:00

Finally got chance to use com! (:
shall blog abt this week now..
sku reopens on this week's monday..
whoa..unable to adapt siol..
feel very sleepy as suddenly nid to wakeup early for sku! D:

had a few new teachers as well..
new modules to learn too!~
dislike this term..all the module related to math and sci D:
my weakest subjects..

assignments are slowly piling up too..
for this term..groups are assign by teachers..
tis means if u got assign to ppl u dislike..
goodluck then..either u live with it or u die! =P
but lucky all my members are alrght uh..
but i nvr really tok to them before..
hope everything goes well =/

had our height and weight check today..
gosh! i gain weight..2kg D:
kinda affect my mood..
sial la...2kg ley..
somemore i nvr eat still gain weight =(
jiu emo whole day..
shall excercise more!!!

since i know that tis term is gonna be busy..
i told jennifer i quitting my job..
will only go back during the holidays~

came across the photos of dad's saiguan too..
wahh..this yr jiu wang ye like fun ley =(
but too vad i cannt go D:
so i can only se those pics and help tag lo..
sigh..but whatever i do seems to be wrong..
maybe i should not have tagged those photos D:

thats all bah..
last day of work tmr..
hopefully i could get the recipe from vincent!

2011-10-01T03:34:00.000+12:00

today damn sleepy!
ytd late night texting with ding dong..
woke up and prepare for work around 9am..
bused to work~

halfway during work mood damn down!=(
everyone have been teling me that johnson likes me..
i just kip siam..
but today cannt siam liao..
den kinda reject him. i feel so bad after seeing him so sad=/
den my mood also went down down down!
got injured as a result..
finger got kiap by the door..
hand got bruised when bang dao cupboard D:

ended work at 7pm..
bused to westmall and meet Lawrence & verine for dinner @ westmall..
thx didi for the drink (:
slack at blk 111 after that..
duno why suddenly tok abt r/s thing..
Memories of you flashback when having the conversation..
went online wanted to view ur profile..
Sadly, even the last way to connect with you is gone.
Thx for deleting me away.W.L.Y.Z

headed home after that~

2011-09-30T00:34:00.000+12:00

went back to work finally!
after resting for 3 days..
haha..a good news to share! (:
i've got a GPA of 3.0 for my 1st ITE exam..woots! :D

work was damn busy today! D:
got afew MCs..
means i nid to cover those jobs of the MCs too =(
lucky i knock off early..haha!
was suppose to end work at five..
but i left at four..
cuz i kinda wanna see somebody...hoho..
cabbed to batok east find dad immediately after work =P

reached there..dad havent reach..
jiu tok with some kor kor and other frenz..
finally saw the person i wanna see (:
but he nvr tok to me! D:
saddded lurh..
snap photos of the lion dance before they depart~

dad came after that..
went to find him and cont toking to him till he left..
headed to mac after that..
damn..got this xdd kip tok very loud siol..
tok abt jiu wang ye stuff..
say if he got the money he also will chu flower lorry..
even grander than those that he saw!
he turn to look at me and i diao him.LOL
hate such ppl..pui!~

went to barkat house after that..
played with rishi for awhile (:
went down to meet shirley for dinner..
ate zhe char at blk 271..
went home after that (:

2011-09-27T21:24:00.004+12:00

was suppose to wake up in the early morning today..
pei mom go bugis pray..but woke up late =.=
so end up slept till 11 plus den wake up.
got a gift from dad ytd..super surprised!
he got me this t-shirt that i wanted long ago ^_^
thank you dad! (:

freshen up myself..
went to westmall find barkat slack..
ate lunch den they wanna do the friendship ring thing..
so cabbed to JP..
walked around to search for the ring we wanted..
saw Jianhong working..

wow..total cost for 4 rings + chains = $230
haha..my finger was like the smallest lurh..ring size only 11..
thanks for the lovely gift! (:

went to Zone X after that..
juheat, Basketball, DDR & drum..
cabbed back westmall after that..

pei Barkat go swensen buy ice cream cake for her grandpa bdae..
i also feel like eating too! =(
went home after that (:

2011-09-26T02:00:00.000+12:00

at first i tot today was going be a boring day for me..
cuz i cannot go chushi!!!!=(
this means i cannot see those ppl like amy, lawrence & ding dong liao..
long time nvr saw them alrdy ah sial! D:

went to work..zzz..
work halfway..came a surprise visit from Barkat & Shirley! (:
that really cheer me up alot!
espicially they all waited for me to end work and pei me till night! ^_^

after work..
ate at marche with them..
best thing about working in Marche : 50% off whatever i order ^_^
got a wonderful gift as well!
Build-A-Bear by the name of Harley!
aww..thanks so much for this expensive bear..BFF!
will treasure it de :D

feeling bored..
so we decided to go sentosa! hahaha..
random ttm!
sat the skyride thingy..
wahh..scary max lurh! cuz i afraid of height D:
walked around the island after that~

headed back to vivo & harbourfront centre..
pei barkat buy clothes..
cabbed home after that!(:
thx for the ride once again =D

2011-09-25T13:19:00.000+12:00

Rest Day again today!~
slept till eleven plus in the morning den wake up..
got nag by dad D:
obviously he knew i am texting till very late thats why late wake up..
but i kip having trouble sleeping leyy..what to do?!

mom cooked lunch..
fried beehoon with chicken wing~
i tink dad'a cookin is better.LOL
online watch show till six..

went out with dad go Khatib..
attend Yunyang 7th annivasary! (:
met up with Nasir before heading down..
reached there around 7 plus..
very few ppl nia =.=
event started around 8.30..
food was not bad =P

texted with Johnson to pass time..
saw coach there too! he came to our table.LOL
reached home around 12 plus..
thx darling kor kor for the ride home~
bump into nicholas on the way home..
hmms..boii ah..next time mai so late eat lurh! xD

onlnie using phone again..
cuz having trouble sleeping..
den suddenly rain very heavy ah sial!
but good that it rain..finally went to sleep after that~

2011-09-23T00:37:00.001+12:00

finally got time to blog!
this few days very sick siol..
stupid weather make me fever,flu and sore thoroat! D:
also keep late sleep cuz busy texting with ding dong..haha(:
in th end: late for work for 3 days consecutively.=.=
lucky nvr tio fire,only got nag nia.

was suppose to work till 8pm on ytd..
but head damn pain..so went back at 5pm..
haiz..$14 gone D:

rest at home the whole day..
online..
got a msg from Mr alex say chushi on the 28oct..ho yeah! cant wait (:
texted with lawrence & ding dong..
duno why..text from ding dong gave me an unsual feeling..
sometimes just a msg from him can make me feel so down..
but most of the time quite happy to see his msg uh:P

went to take a nap..
woke up and watch Final Destination 5..
hmms...very fake siol.LOL
prepare dinner for kelvin and myself..
baked japanese curry rice and pasta! :D
text awhile with nicholas after that (:

thats all ah..
going back to work tmr, 11-7pm~

2011-09-19T02:41:00.000+12:00

rest day today! but not exactly resting..LOL!
online and chatted with an awesome fellow by the name of Weijie..
LOL! chatted for 3hr plus siol..
chat till sleepy..so went back sleep again..
hahas..i am such a pig! D:

got woken up by his msg..
den prepare go meet Barkat, Shirley & J.ng..
went to watch Johhny English Reborn..super hilarious! xD
thanks for the movie treat and the cup of iced chocolate from coffee bean!
love ya loads! (:

headed to macpherson ITE for lion danc training after that..
wahh...my drummin..cui siol!
tink is too long nvr practise liao =/
got nag abit by coach..oh well..jiayou to myself!

thats all abt today bah..
gonna sleep alrdy..tmr working from 11am-4pm!

oh ya..last thing!
THose that know me pls drom me ur contact number via SMS/Fb..
lost all my phone contacts ytd!=(

2011-09-15T01:09:00.000+12:00

super duper angry today!
hate ppl last minute put me aeroplane! :@
despite working late last night..
i make an effort to make myself wake up early!
in the end...
just because one person not going..
end up all not going.wtf!

rotted at home the whole day..
went back to sleep after that~
kena called a pig by Andy =.=

leg damn pain...
talk to godma abt my leg de condition..
she ask me go see doc asap..
sigh..see doc no nid money?
if really nid operate den cannot walk for a long period of time ley..
den who to give me money for my expense????
hmms..tink cant tahan le zai see how bah=/

woke up..
reply msges from Nicholas & Charol.
wow..surprise to see Nicholas de msg siol..
hmms...text for awhile=/
i didnt realise how much hurt i've caused you..
so sorry! =(

asked charol to check my work schedule for next week..
but she nvr reply! D:
can only check when i go back work on sat le lo..sian
thats all bah~

2011-09-14T02:42:00.002+12:00

super hate the weather..
rain the whole day today!
got drenched from head to toe when going out for lunch! =(

also got information when chushi for Jiu Wang Ye @ Hougang Dou Mu Gong le..
sian la! i cnnt go =(
it falls on the 5th oct yet my holiday till 2nd Oct nia..
walao eh..i wanna go siol! D:

reached work place kip sneezing.>.<
plus..my phone is seriously damn fucked up right now!
everything is so not nice after the software update..
lazy to restore back cuz will be super long =(
sigh...

lucky got release an hour early..
cuz no ppl today due to the weather..
sian..work less = money less!
but oh well..i got to enjoy tiramisu ice cream in return! ^_^
went home after that~

going vivo with BFF tmr to watch movie..
and lunch @ Marche too!
best thing abt working in Marche..
everything is 50% off the usual price ^_^
thats all abt today bah~

*why am i still thinking abt you when u are just a rotten egg?FML.*

2011-09-13T03:35:00.000+12:00

lack of sleep!
ytd woke up in the middle of the night..
chatted with Piggy & Darling..
slept at 5am..woke up at 11am.

watch some gangster show and went to work..
jianzhi say he saw me but i nvr saw him ley! =/
sorry nvr wave back at you :P

reached workplace..
work was boring today..
laogong not around to pei me! =(
den chatted with her thru fb!LOLs~
spend my last half an hour went to hu hu..

got a call from pei yu..
got to knw alot of things from her and her friend..
hmms...in a dilema=/
didnt expect you to be such a person!
you say he flirt..he say u flirt..
wtf is all this nonsense!
damn...why must all boys play gal feeling like nobody's business?!

den pour out everything to Piggy..
hmms..feel much better after that..
had banana milkshake with pearls for dinner after that(:

hate the work scedule..
all no break..only got smoke break =.=
gotta endure everyday..
only after work den got time eat..
thats all ba~
totally no mood today =(

2011-09-12T23:50:00.002+12:00

woke up @ 9am today..
prepare and went for work!^_^
been 3 mths since i last went back thr to work..
kinda excited hahaha..
reached there..
receive warm greetings & hugs from my awesome collegues!:D
got a gift from Vincent as well! ;D

hmms..work was okay..
sadded that Xu He transfer to 313 somerset..
Aunty Nancy no longer working there le =(
got to know some few fellows too.
one particular guy name Johnson..
hahas..he super cute ley..
look kinda like Huang Jin Lun! xD
he ask for my number but i nvr give =P
when know u better zai see how bah (:

ended work @ 4pm..
pei Charol go eat and hu-hu..
went home after that..
legs kinda aching right now =/
hope tmr will be better!(:

tmr working from 4pm-10pm..
whats worse? charol not working tmr! =(
nobody to pei me liao..ahhh!
thats all bah~

hahas..damn happy to blog everytime..
cuz i know there will always be someone reading it!
awesome much <3 (:

2011-09-11T03:57:00.000+12:00

suppose to be in bed right now..
but got the sudden urge to blog..
so here i am bloggin (:

weather damn cold today! =(
make me wke up around 6am..
check fb using phone and chatted with that angkong siao wilson..
hahas..he super random! but i like ^_^
slept like a pig till eleven..

den pei dad go eat..
online after that till 3..
leave house and went to meet Andy go chushi..
had chicken rice for dinner and went chushi @ Haig road..
hahas..amazed by myself that i coul actually finish it..
as i normally dun eat de

welcome the MP..Performance...Procession..
everything ended around 10 plus?
headed back and pei Andy, Teck Wee & the rest..
go Singpost eat Kfc..
home after that!~

gotta wake up for work @ 9am tmr
going back marche to work fron 11-4pm..
hope i dun overslept! :P

P.S: Happy Birthday Venus! ^_^

2011-09-10T04:13:00.000+12:00

woke up early morning to go Grandma house today..
trained all the way from Bukit Batok to Bedok..tiring!
chatted with grandma and others before going find Aunty Mama..
got a total of $60 from them..hehes..

went to Aunty Mama's House..
got another $20 from her..sigh..i miss her alot =(
went home after awhile and prepare to go Ngee Ann City..
watch lion dance championship finals..
reach there early..

bump into Huangyan..
chatted awhile..
turn out she working at that place.hahas..
future career woman uh..mai play play! xD

chatted with one of dad's fren too..
duno his name..only know he from longtian last time..LOL
tellin me abt lion dance etc..
hmms..i know all have my interest in mind uh..
want me not to mix with lion dance too much..
i know my limits too...so yea..
wun be so obsessed with it de..no nid worry! (:

after awhile..the rest came..
started to rain and the event nearly got postpone! :(
lucky nvr postpone if not i sure cannt see due to chushi tmr..
finally the rain stop and it proceeded..
Magnificent lion dance performances indeed...

saw afew frens there too..hahas..
tmd de lo...didi at ther but dunwan come find wo..sibei good la he!
and i finally got to know the name of that guy after so long! :D
with awesome frens and gans around me..
it definitely make it a memorable night tonight!(:

looking at the props of YiQuan..
makes me wanna try do for next year CCA road show!
shall go learn how to make and attract more ppl to ITE College Central Troupe Bah (:

2011-09-08T17:35:00.000+12:00

Had my last exam today!
ho yeah...start of the holidays liao..woots!
went to Machperson ITE after exam..
preapare go chushi @ Balestier ITE..
for Mid Autumn Festival Celebration..

hmms..
actually is only one lion de..
but i persuade piggy to come..
so become two lion perform! :D
Also got to know those that will be ex-co for next yr le..
Andy-Chairman
Teck wee- Vice-Chairman
Me- in charge of gathering ppl and spread info and stuff.. >.<

everything ended around 6pm..
pics and videos uploaded in Fb & Youtube respectively.
went to mamashop with andy & teck wee after that..

conversation between us and the auntie.
*after sku wif Frenz paying for drink*
me: eh? Marbollo got new flavor ah.."coke flavor"..
Auntie: "coke flavor ni de tou la"
me:*squint my eyes* oh! Is "Core flavor" not "coke flavor"
Andy & Teck Wee:*Trying their best not to laugh! *
time to change spec le!kekes.. xD

took a 2hr bus ride home after that~

2011-09-05T17:40:00.001+12:00

Had my 1st ITE exam today..
hmms..today's paper is on Early Childhood Development..
hope to get a good score for it.(:
went home to catch a nap after that..

woke up and prepare to go Ngee Ann City..
meet dad & watch the 17th Ngee Ann Lion Dance Championship
reach there..
saw Joshua & Kenneth first..
said hello to them & Joshua brought us go find Yiwei ppl..
saw alot of familiar faces too(:

competition started..
damn excited de lurh..
all those props was so nice!
wonder how it is made..seem like alot of hard work siol..

however,accident do happen..
heart damn pain when YL fall! =(
but admired his never give up attitude..
they continued till the end!*clap clap*
hehes...forever the fan of them! :DDD

tears were alrdy swelling up in my eyes..
trying my best not to cry out..
lucky after awhile YL & Keith jiu okay liao..
went home with dad after that~

i so wanna go watch YiQuan's performance tmr!~
but mom dun let..sigh =(
cuz got exam the next day...
Jiayou to Nicky & Engchuan!go go go! (:

here's a pic to end of my blog post for today..
credits to Carol's Photography.
do support her page: http://www.facebook.com/#!/pages/Carols-Photography/213113005400480

2011-09-04T00:31:00.000+12:00

my dream just got weirder and weirder..LOLs!
ytd dreamt abt being in the same sku as the taiwan idol Mike He..
he's very arrogant and in order to make him change..
i made a bet with him to kneel down without looking up for 8hrs..
i manage to win the bet and when i got up..
i fell into his arm and fainted..

when i got up..
his mom said that i was a very strong-willed gal..
and ask me to be his secretary..
turns out that he is the boss of marche..
and my pay will be $17/hr..
we went to dine in marche after that..
all my ex-collegue envied me and ask me last long..LOL~~~~~
weird to the max..

anyway..
woke up and studied for exam..
watch "Hello!Baby SHINee" after that..
damn cute!!!
headed to clementi to buy the ingrdients to make mooncake..
wow...amazed by myself..
manage to make 50 mini mooncake in 2.5 hr..
so much cheaper to make than to buy from outside..
hahahs(:

below is the moon cake i made..
Tiramisu Snowskin Mooncake(:

2011-09-03T01:13:00.000+12:00

had a super weird nightmare last night..
it felt so real..so scary..
dream abt being in a place with somebody whom i cant rmb..
suddenly there's this dark force that enter into my body..
got flung up in the air and was up there..unable to move,damn scary!
also heard some voice that keep chanting "Juda" or smth like that...

the scene change and i was brought back to grandpa house..
the neighbour of his turn into a vampire and started sucking the whole flat of ppl..
the whole flat became an army of vampires..
i was running trying to keep myself alive..
made a call to aunty evone ask her to slay the vampire..
den suddenly i bump into Ah Boon..
he called all his army frenz to help destroy the vampires..
saudah appear after that and i grab a phone from her..
calling dad tellin him i am going to die soon..

i must have been watching too much vampire drama lately..LOL!
lucky is just a nightmare..hope i wun have it tonight =/

2011-09-01T03:40:00.000+12:00

finally went back to sku today..
school was like only for 2hrs?LOL!
today only got celebration in sku..
no exams..performance was okay uh..

trained home after that..
the journey was damn jialat for me lurh!
there's this creepy old woman who kept talking to me =.=
tok abt her life..comment abt youngster behavior..
gawd..the whole journey of 14 stops keep listening to her talk..
but nvm uh..must be patient..
listen to her crap lo~

headed home after that..
online and chat with Chen Yan on QQ..
wow..he's getting engage soon!
congrats brother ^_^
hope there is a chance to see him again..
provided he come back singapore!~

got this gift from Ms Claire!(:
my 1st gift related to Early Childhood Education..
a balloon flower with a tag that says" for the future teachers-Happy Teachers Day"
kinda motivate me to cont the journey of being a teacher in the future!LOL

2011-08-29T04:25:00.000+12:00

Didnt went to sku today..
I swear i did woke up this morning preparin to go sku!
but...i kept snoozing until...OVERSLEPT! =.=
missed the ECD Mock exam..oh well..
jialat le lo~

since i gave school a miss..
jiu went to interview for jobs..
went to Science Centre to try my luck at Sakura..
the pay kinda little..so rejected it.
$5/hr nia..not worth..
previous job of mine was worth $7/hr.

went to Barkat house after that..
long time nvr meet up with her liao..
slacked at her house watch KPop Music Videos..
had Mac for lunch..
slacked till four plus..

went for lion dance training after that..
sian lurh..today train at canteen..
as the hall is being use for polling station..
Andy treat me drink..haha..thx kor! (:
went home after that~

Cant wait for exam to finish..
and go chushi on the 8th & 11th sept! :DDD

2011-08-26T22:07:00.002+12:00

weather was so damn terrible today.gosh!
i hate travelling in a rainy day.
got drench while walking from home to mrt station..
endure for 40 minutes in the freezing mrt..
drench in the rain for the 2nd time when walking to sku from bisham! ugh~

self study as usual..
got into another heated argument in sku today..2nd time!
quarrel with huiting cuz i keep pick on her..
but truth..if u nv behave in a childish way that irritated me i wun say u?
problem with me is i am always to straightforward..
unlike those ppl...who dun dare say anything cuz they care abt the party's feeling.

words from huiting made me reflect..
why have i become so mean?when have it all started?
sigh..i am not like this in the past..
everythin just start to change 5mths ago..
i became more demanding,easily get irritated..
kip findin ppl fault, shunning from everyone, Duno who to trust etc..sigh
maybe dissapearing will be better?

so went home alone after sku immediately..
guess i prefer to be alone.
develop a slight fever so went to sleep...
wake up replied to msges from alot of ppl..
so sorry not to reply cuz very blur.
ahh..hope tmr will ok liao if not how to do project?! =(

2011-08-25T02:41:00.000+12:00

1 week since i last blogged..
been studying & revising for exam lately..
hmms..so many things to rmb! =(
hope can get a good grade for it.

cant wait for the upcoming weeks to come..
heard that got chushi on 8th sept @ balestier ITE..
followed by chushi on 11th sept (:
after that i'm gonna go work liao..

no more money left..
been thinking where to work better ley?
Swensen's, Marche, Bar A Vin or Sakura ley?
hmms..
tink any job is fine as long as i got money earn bah!(:

and to those ppl out there that just wanna toy ppl feeling to pass time..
i suggest u better fuck off from my life before i turn nasty!
lie once, its fine.
lie twice or more, thats it..game over.(:

2011-08-17T03:07:00.001+12:00

17th August 2011!(:
happy 18th birthday to myself..
hahaa..i am finally 18 ^_^
can buy cigg/alchohol legally & watch M18 movies liao..woots!~

went to sku today..
got presents from huiting & Vivienne..
thx..appreciate lotz! (:

was hoping to hear THX to wish me though..
but hmms..oh well..nvm~
another thing that made me happy today..
during break..Benjamin frm IQN sat at the table next to me!(:
so happy de lurh!he damn cute..omg xD

went home after that..
change & went to IMM and have dinner @ Swensen's with family..
wow..total spend about $114.40..
haha..enjoyed myself ttm!(:

walk around IMM to buy stuff for my project..
went home after that to watch" on the fringe2"..
thats all abt today..

SPECIAL THANKS TO THE 146(and still counting on!) ppl that wish me "Happy Birthday" on facebook! Espicially Gary Tan..the guy that acted in the show"on the fringe2"(:
not to forget..thru SMS, Call, and in person too!(:

2011-08-16T15:11:00.002+12:00

seriously so busy this few days to even use com..
hmms..didnt went sku today..
nid a break from everything!~

stayed at home..
watch On the fringe 2 ep10 as i missed it due to training ytd.
hmms..drumming got improve uh..
also got news that there got chushi on 11sept for mid autumn festival.
hahahs..cant wait!(:
got a birthday present from jiu soon too(:
thx bro(:

exams around the corner..
really nid to revise alrdy..
as i know my assignments are like so fuck up >.<
thats all bah(:

2011-08-11T23:45:00.002+12:00

Back to posting~

hmms..been busy with those projects.
cant belived my group ideas got rejected five times..
cant take it and cried..
all got shocked by my reaction =/
went home and start thinkin abt new ideas..hope wun get rejected tmr~

know my grades for PPE cooking assignment today..
the making of Kyraben..
got a B+ for that..hmms...
not bad i guess?
could have been an A if i put in more effort to do =(

got back results for Email writing as well..
got 14.5/20...room for improvement!~
exams in 3 weeks time..
but i dun seem to absorb all the things being taught..
stress max!

just hope all the info can get into this stupud brain of mine in 3 weeks time~

P.S: happy 4th mth, ICA! (:

2011-08-06T20:21:00.002+12:00

damn tired tis few days..
had rehersal till 5 ytd..
sigh..still duno what to do for PI project..
lucky monday no cca..more time to tink of what to do=/

currently in love with the new show 边缘父子..
hahas..didnt know abt it until Xun tok abt it..
thats all bah..

going out ltr to attend dinner event with dad..
at jurong east 204~

2011-08-02T23:15:00.002+12:00

barely have 5hrs of sleep jiu went to sku..
sixuan saw me so shag jiu ask me what happen..
kept yawning during class =.=
lucky lecture was a breeze..
dance prac after that..

had rehersal with the rest of the performers till four..
super shag!
more to come tmr =.=

thats all bah~

2011-08-01T23:07:00.000+12:00

didnt really slept well..
kip tossing & turning in bed..
went to sku..
had a test on Cognitve Developement..
dun tink can do well.sigh=/

dance was cancelled in the afternoon..
so decided to went home to sleep before going CCA..
but got msg from andy & jiu soon..
said they @ macpherson liao..
i was at yio chu kang back then..
so i travelled from thr to macpherson =.=

reached there..
got nagged by andy for doing stupid things..
den help to fold the joss paper to burn for 7mth..
training started soon after..

guess i still not in the mood uh..
elson said he would come but nvr..
hmms..guess i know the reason why u nvr come bah..
train drum and cymbal..
wow..now cymbal also go pattern siol..jialat..
got a blister! pain die me =(

lester came too..
finally see dao him after so long..hahas..
hope u come back soon~

went home with andy..
was tokin wid him @ station..
den realise i forget to throw away those mess i made =.=
in the end..kena blame..
suan la..all my fault la..
others that make mess no fault lo..
all diam diam nvr apologize..
i apologize also tio shoot for being rara etc..

give up~

2011-07-31T02:29:00.000+12:00

boring sunday!
kinda worried for elson..replied his msg but no reply after that=/
intended to go westmall to study for tmr's test on Cognitive development..
but nvr go instead!~

reason:
my BFFs promised to accompany me to study..
but in the end?
last minute put aeroplane dun wan go.
seriously la..
everytime wanna study jiu find excuses..
go out everytime jiu steady..

studied at home instead..
studied for afew hours den went to sleep..
woke up around 6.30pm..
went to have dinner with dad~
sigh..dad lose money again =/
really duno how to survive for the next month le..

got a msg from kenneth..
shared with him all the thoughts in my mind..
feel relived after sharing..
now only left with a decison to make..
leave or stay?

so vexed!~

2011-07-29T19:41:00.000+12:00

school was fun ytd!(:
went to sku in home clothes..
dance from 8-9am..
audition after for National day performance..
hmms..alot of things nid to change =.=
spend the next few hours dancing again.LOL!
gastric act up but after awhile jiu okay liao..

went to Laselle College of the Arts..
to watch a play" Rainbow Fish" wih ECH year1 students..
hmms..the play was quite interesting uh..
but kinda fell asleep cuz too tired from dancing =/
when i woke up..the row behind me all sleeping also!
power max..haha!

went to bugis street & bugis junction aftr that..
walk awhile and bought chewy junior home..
reached home and off to bed~

2011-07-28T01:38:00.000+12:00

Happy Birthday, Mom.

2011-07-27T22:43:00.002+12:00

nothing much abt today..
school as usual..
going Laselle with the rest of the class on friday to watch a play(:
skip SW today..
first time pon lesson siol =/

went to watch Harry Potter & the Deathly Hallows (part2) with Emily..
first time watching movie with her(:
damn awesome can! haha...
went home after that..

came across smth..sigh..
wow..things change so much..
not even 4 mths that we broke up..
yet such things happen..
seriously..both of you are just so selfish!
a child is so innocent can?!
it pains me just to know u aborting it away=(

person B..
u got back with her and dump me..
now u dun even keep my contact..
guess i was nvr important to you in the first place..
u shall be erased from my heart from now on!~

2011-07-26T21:53:00.003+12:00

happy thing that happen today(:
hohoho..got a new sibling in my list! ^_^
Elson & Eileen..
became siblings on 26.07.11
every 26th is loved! :DD

school starts at twelve today..
so wake up around ten and online..
chatted with elson before going sku..
saw mr alex's comment on my status..
dang! nid to see him on friday D:
but i am not going..dun care.

seriously lo..
comment until like my fault liddat..
i the main victim lor =(
always thought ITE college central lion dance could give me a happy feeling..
no matter what happen in sku..confilcts etc..
whenever i go there jiu very relax..
but the feeling no longer the same anymore.

headed to sku..damn hungry..
but nvr go eat uh..
saving money!
sigh..next mth sure jialat le..
dad losing money..
keep borrow money from me..
until my bank from $800plus left $70plus..

got a text from ronald..
apologizing to me..what i want isnt an apology..
i just hope that all of you could be more mature thats all..
no point apologizing if u cant repent from it..
but oh well..let bygones bygone..

went to pandan resevoir to calm myself..
tears keep streaming down..
wondering to myself..
who will be there for me?answer: nobody.
stomach starts to hurt..think is nvr eat bah..
sigh..life sucks.

went home..
kelvin and mom quarreling..
den mom jiu tot i skip sku today cuz i went to sku late instead of the usual time..
tried to explain but no use uh..
thx for the slap u gave me.
gave up..went to my room and brood for the whole evening..

sick and tired of it..

2011-07-25T04:03:00.000+12:00

busy monday i have today!
went to sku early morning @ 8am..
turn out that ms claire & ms pearl nvr come. =.=
free period from 8-12.
sia la..could have sleep at home sial =(

had a tiff with huiting..
just because i rate her a 7 on her looks =.=
i dun like hiding things..
and seriously if u tink u are pretty den fk care my words la..
guess being straightforward isnt a good thing after all..
sorry.

had dance training after that..
today train with the year 2 seniors..awesome!(:
train till 5pm..
headed to J8 mac with emily, Syafiqah & sree..

trained to macpherson for lion dance trainin..
whoa..whole body like a shag only..
but at least got to meet two of the seniors's senior..
Elson & Jeff..haha..had a fun time training with them..
first time see dao elson..haha..she very cool eh.
kinda remind me of serene lim =/

train till 9plus..
reached home online saw a post by the twins..
seriously not happy jiu say in my face..
dun be a wimp that cant take insults..
as if i got post ur name..dun assume la!
childish people~~

thinkin alot lately..
deadline is dec..yet all this friendship conflict is happening..
maybe i should just leave?
i am only good at causing hurt to people..
die le sua.

2011-07-24T22:19:00.002+12:00

cant belive its sunday today alrdy..
back to sku tmr =(
spend my whole morning using com..
texting with jiu soon & qi long(luohan)..

suddenly remeber peter tell me smth funny ytd during the dinner event..
hahas..story goes like this..
peter's iphone hang den he duno what to do..
he panick as alot of important doument is inside his phone.
guess what he did?
he unscrew the iphone and pluck the battery out!LOL
thinking like old phone liddat..once pluck out battery and restart jiu okay liao..
after hearing all of us laugh like mad...
he even demo again sial! so cute lurh xD

went to market to buy things to cook..
cooking at home indeed help to save up money..
rather than spending it outside on those unhealthy food..
got a text from some guy asking me meet him near my house..
LOL..so what if you are a friend of qianhui, chee meng & wisely?
mister..i dun even know who the hell you are.>.<

ages since people mention to me or even seeing this word "wisely"..
sigh..think back of what happen when i saw this name appear in my phone.=/
all this make me realise..曾经以为我拥有着我想要的幸福与朋友和家人的关怀，到头来我什么都没有.

went to sleep..
dream abt wisely..
sigh..cant help it but cry again..
didnt expect myself that after so long i still cant get over you..
i know u will nvr be mine again..sigh..
but i still love you as much as ever.

2011-07-23T14:22:00.000+12:00

started baking early in the morning today..
my first time making tarts..
so the appearance wasn't that nice..
still got room for improvement.
kelvin tried and say it's nice..hehes (:

got a text from barkat..
asking me to go out with her, J.ng & Shirley in the evening..
agreed to go out but last minute nvr go..
sorry ah =(
went to attend dinner event @ 同勝堂 with dad & other wee ghee ppl..
its like i dun have time to spend with my dad due to sku works..
so i tink its only right for me to join my dad for dinner since he asked..

reach home around 11plus..
went to sleep after that~

2011-07-22T01:31:00.001+12:00

First thing first!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ANDY LEE, EMILY & NICOLE.C..
all my precious..hahas..
enjoy today alrite! (:

Did cooking for PPE today! :D
was so excited for it lurh..
althoguht some ppl forget bring stuff,late come etc..
but we still manage to finish it..awesome much!(:
hope can get a good grade for it..hehe^_^

got a call from sandy jie..
ask me go help tengyang chushi cuz last minute not enuf ppl..
but sorry ah..i am not alow to chushi at outside de troupe. =(

went to j8 ate pepper lunch to reward myself!(:
went home to have a good nap..
slept for 4 hrs den wake up reply msg..
cant sleep after that =.=

sigh..
worried for you..
really hope u wun do foolish things,Nicholas Clifford Clyde.

2011-07-21T01:06:00.001+12:00

had a strange dream..
dreamt abt person B..
hmms..that dream is not gonna happen..
so must forget!!!

celebrated racial harmony day in sku today!(:
wore my malay costume..
everyone was like staring at me in the train =/
fancy a chinese gal wearing mlay costume.weird!~
bump into syafiqah when the train reach woodlands..
went to sku with her(:

the program were damn fun!
we learn a fusion of malay,indian & western dance..
play musical chairs..
did henna painting on hand...

went back to class for the finale..cat walk!
the celebration ended at around 12.30..
head for lunch..boring lessons after that..
took pics with some frens..
pics @ my fb! ^_^

thats all abt today..

2011-07-18T01:59:00.001+12:00

barely have 5 hrs of sleep jiu went to sku..
got a shock today..
there's this frog hiding in the shoe rack located outside our class.
i was going to put my shoe there when i saw the frog..
and i scream like siao zha bor lor!
eeks...scary max!

lessons as usual..
finally got my cert from AGAPE little uni..
hahas.my first cert related to early childhood education(:
ICA's video for NDP singing competition were uploaded as well..
links are at my fb wall(:

discussed abt practicing the flashmob dance after sku..
wanted to stay but i didnt cuz my head was throbbing..
damn pain..reach home immediately sleeep!~
set alarm to wake up at 4.30 for training..
but i only woke up at 630pm..

woke up..back super pain..
so went to see doc..
doc say cannt do physical actvities for at least 5 days..
due to a rupture in my ligaments..
heard from ah soon that some ppl are going to perform @ serangoon garden tmr..
have fun (:
thats all bah..

saw smth that i want badly!(:
this shirt..ytd saw some guys wearing at west coast CC..
nice de lor!i wanna this for my birthday present! xD

*images of you kept appearing in my mind ever since yesterday, TYL.

2011-07-17T01:53:00.000+12:00

rot at home the whole day..
was so sleepy that i actually slept till 3pm den wake up..
got a ms from kenneth asking whether wanna go watch comp @ west coast CC anot..
wanted to go but duno if dad allow anot..
den nvr reply..sorry ahh...
went there with dad in the end(:

saw alot of familiar faces there..
haha..manage to see dao kenneth as well(:
sigh..ytd competition was so dissapointing..
damn..but oh well..at least manage to see dao all of you(:

went home online..
chatted with nick & youliang..
head to bed after that..

2011-07-15T00:29:00.001+12:00

no lesson for today(:
did NAPFA all the way till 11..
my scores...
Sit up=35
incline pull up=16
shuttle run=11.9s
sit and reach=42
broad jump=185
2.4km=15.45
Hahas..got improvement wor! =P
ate rice after that..
super hungry! =(

headed to vivocity after that..
with roy, janelle & hui ting..
wanted to go find charol de..
but she nvr reply msg cuz she sleeping! D:

headed to daiso to but the things we need for PPE project..
den went to giant to buy ingrdients..
roy super hilarious..
make me squat down there laugh like one siaozhabor.LOL

burger king after that (:
went home...
took the same bus as qusti(duno how to spell his name)..
LOL! he only stay 2 bus stop away from where i alight.haha
reach home..
went to sleep..
wake up..
headed to westmall..

bought alot of food to eat..
apple & durian strudel,breadtalk, sambal fish rice..
headed home..
saw a invitation card frm 妙善宫 for dad...

den dad jiu tell me the story of why we are affilated with it..
story goes like this..
i was a very sick child when i was young..
kip go in and out of hospital..
den dad jiu go to 妙善宫 pray..
den dad jiu tell me i jiu become guanyin de god daughter..
den sickness slowly get better..
hahas..like those drama siol.

thats all abt today bah..
going janelle house to cook tmr! :D

*15th of the mth..
3mths pass ever since we broke up..
do you still remeber the happy moments we have?
i miss you.

2011-07-14T02:10:00.000+12:00

went to sku early to film the video or some NDP competition..
wore cca shirt forthe whole day in sku..
haha..mr.edmund walk pass but nvr catch me for not wearing Uniform..haha!:P
lesson till four..

went home and headed for dinner alone..
too famished!
just realise smth..
wenever i am upset/stress..i tend to binge on food! D:
ate a pkt of bee hoon w/ sausage, fried tao kee & spring roll at 5.30.
den follow kelvin and mom for dinner @ 7.30...again!
ate a plate of rice w/ chicken & kangkong.
mom got shock and ask if i am alrite..
never answer cuz idk myself either=/

got a text from andy..
make me super pised!
ehh..not the first time u send those sms to me le lo!
since friendship can so easily break..as u wish!
tired of going through those drama oh mama again..
fancy getting myself over such things and cry..tsk..not worth!
thats it..not gonna contact the both of you anymore!

I seriously nid a break i guess?
and to those ppl out there..
i just nid some peace..so i would really apreciate if all can leave me alone!
TYVM.

2011-07-13T00:29:00.000+12:00

11/7/11
back to school..
rushed ECD project till 1pm..
wanted to go find kenneth as he was at bishan playin jubeat =(
long time nvr meet him alrdy..feel so bad abt it=/
went home to make the clothballs for playkit..
rush to cca after that..
few ppl turn up..sian..
traning was not bad i guess?
nid improve uh..i suck at drumming.

12/7/11
slpt for 4hrs and went to school with puffy eyes..
damn tired lurh! kip wanting to slp..
trying my best to stay awake..
presented the play kit..
guess my group is the best among all uh :P
school ended @ 4pm.
went to J8 to eat pepper lunch..
home sweet home..
slept all the way from 6pm till the next day.

13/7/11
receive three hours of lecture/scoldings from Ms D & Ms Claire..
the case about my class humiliating the teacher and making her cry..
lalala..hope tmr will be a better day..
PE..did stuff at gym..
sian la..sept still got test on SW also. WTF =.=
nid know abt the things in gym..the techniques etc..
stayed back to do the Video for NDP..
gonna report @ 8am to do the final filming..
thats all bah..

2011-07-10T02:14:00.001+12:00

woke up @ 11plus today..
quickly reply msg from boon & ah soon..
went to withdraw money to borrow dad..
sigh..left with $169.68 =(
den went to cut hair..
zzz..jialat..now hair so funny..
sure tio laugh tmr =/

watched drama for the whole day..
den den dad prepare go weiyi..
got a text from kenneth..
sian la! forget he can pei me go..
walao...missed the opportunity to go see yiwei & yiquan! =(
but nvm...
congrats to yiwei gettin the champion!(:
congrats to yiquan got the 3rd position! (:

school starts tmr..
hope it will be a better day!

2011-07-09T02:39:00.000+12:00

woke up early morning..
check fb..u accepted my request.wow.
eventhough i know it will hurt me..
i still chose to add you back..
didnt expect you to accept..lol..
such a silly gal i am..

got a text from serene..
hmms..she aint the gal for you..
dun wanna see you get hurt alrite?
such a gal like her dun deserve a gal like you.

continued with drama..
den headed to pandan resevoir..
the place i always go went i was sad..
being there jiu calm me down le..
wun MIA anymore..

sorry to make ah soon & andy worry abt me..
ah soon's continuous msgs..
andy's constant calls..
hahaa..i wun do anythin reckless de lurh..
thx alot (:

headed to bukit panjang ring rd, blk 615 after that..
went to meet dad..den home for dinner..
gonna stay at home tmr i guess?
dun feel like going watch lion dance competition le..
team YIWEI & YIQUAN Jiayou! (:

2011-07-08T01:43:00.000+12:00

why does everythin that is happening around me so fuck up?!=(
cant take it anymore..stress..
making decisions that i dun wan..
uncompleted school projects..
i am just a normal gal that wanna lead a normal life..
doing things that i enjoy doing..sigh..

two things that make me feel so depressed..
when u, the guy whom i regard as my bro got admitted to hospital..
i was so worried...kip texting to ask if u were alrite..
yet today..u got discharge..
ur status...thanking people that care abt you..
calling you to ask abt ur health etc..
best part: my name wasnt there!
cool...

second..
went to read blogs as i got nth to do today..
went to read ur blog..tot th blog was long dead..
surprise to see ur blog post on 7july..
ur post just make me feel so sad..
i know i cant stop u from loving other ppl..
but it just affect me so deeply..

you know what?
ever since that day i step into cca..
the very first lesson..
u though me the basics..correcting me etc..
ur expression, ur seriousness..sometimes abit blur..
in addition, the fb chats tat we used to have..
the encouragement u gave, the motivations tat spurs me to achieve the best..
chatting in malay thru fb..the only way i felt that i am close to you..
all this..make me fall hard for you boy..

but now i know..
sadly, u will never be mine anymore..
all i could do is just to admire u from far..
"anda akan sentiasa berada di suatu tempat di dalam hati saya.
ILY, bayi singa"

2011-07-07T01:05:00.000+12:00

got woke up by my phone..
zzz...too much msg waiting to be replied~
replied and went onlnie to watch 美樂加油..
headed to cwss after that..
sian, actually all my BFFs say wanna go tgt de..
in the end..all last minute pangseh..
went alone lo..

reach home around 2pm..
ate lunch and went to sleep till 6plus..
got a msg from kenneth telling me stuff..
nb la hor..cant control ur bf still wanna push the blame to me..LOL!
den he jiu tell me my dad seems to allow me go help long shi tmr..
was so happy when i hear that..
but turn out to be fake..
but nevermind..at least dad brought back the shirt that i wanted! (:

online...
heart kinda feel abit weird when i saw ur comments..
didnt know u alrdy attached..sigh..
last long with ur gal bah..
but still...u meant alot to me.

2011-07-05T03:09:00.000+12:00

woke up at nearly 11am today..
first time sleep till so late..
as usual..nobody's at home..
dad work..mom go malaysia..kelvin go sku..
online till noon..

chatted with nick for awhile..
went back to sleep after that..
zz..i am such a pig :P
woke up..
everyone was at home..

dad repeat those words again..
hmms..i understand uh..
no helping out at outside..
understand understood =/

den mom jiu at there kpkb..
say if i nvr joi all this den wun have so much trouble..
pls la..u not even at home most of the time..
u wun knw what i ever want..
how much it meant to me so STFU..

in ur heart, i am always in the wrong.
No matter what i do, it always doesnt seem right.=(
thats it...not gonna care anymore~

and to those ppl out there..
as i said before..i wun share my probs anymore..
so dun bother asking wad happen.
just fkin leave me alone.

2011-07-04T15:33:00.001+12:00

went to macpherson around 3pm ytd..
went there early cuz andy wanna meet me early...
reach sku..watch some chinese drama while waiting for the rest to reach..
headed to singpost to have early dinner @ astons (:
haha..all ate except me..
skipped meals again =P

went to NTUC after that..
ah soon & andy bought me sweets..
aww thanks to my both kor! (:
bck to campus for training..
they started to train for the eye dotting thing..
will be helping out for longshi on friday..

sigh..sadded max.
dad dun allow me help chu longshi..
words from him" tell ah kan i say cannot, if not u no nid be in sku team also"
sian lorrr....thats all bah..

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2011-07-03T02:20:00.000+12:00

rotted at home the whole day today...
washed up all the dirty laundry..
zzz...the soap water make the cut on my finger feel so pain & itchy D:
never gonna help ppl wash clothes again! =(

watch 醉后决定爱上你 EP1 & 2 to pass time..
hmms..got some parts kinda remind me of my ex..
espicially the main male actor the attitude totally the same.LOL!
waited dad for dinner..

got a msg from ronald..
LOL..another confession..
sianz..i just wish all this to stop lurh..
all will be treated as my brother..no exceptions!~

went home online..
saw smth shocking..
really cant belive that u are such type of person ley =/
sigh,sister dun feel too sad alrite?
better guy next time (:

thats all abt today bah..

2011-07-02T01:58:00.001+12:00

went to eat smth light with dad & mom..
procceed to macpherson after that..
skip meet the parent session to go chushi @ orchard..
text with lester on the way there..
hmms..his operation is sucessful!(:
hope can discharge soon..god bless!

went to Singapore Dragon & Lion Atheletic Association first..
waited for the rest den off to orchard (:
saw isabel sister at SDLAA..
haha..wow..she so damn chio in real life (:
didnt chat much though..

reached orchard..
finally saw how the gal look like..hmms..so-so~
super tired..jiu lean on teck wee de shoulder..
wanna sleep but andy keep disiao! =(
parade started after awhile..
tiring max~~

took pics while in the lorry..
haha..the guy damn cute lurh!
but cant seem to find his fb D:
backed to macpherson..
went home to have dinner after that~

2011-07-01T00:14:00.002+12:00

went to polyclinic early morning today..
as usual...more medications! D:
sian...if only those medications could be turn into sticky candies!
walked to westmall after that..
bought japanese curry and went back home to cook it..

got a msg from ah soon..
said lester got admitted to hospital..
immdiately text lester to ask abt his condition..
gosh..turn out to be appendix..
nid to wait for operation..currently at tts hospital..
damn pain de lor..cuz i got expirence before..
sigh..hope he get well soon=(

tmr chushi..duno till wad time ley..
hmms..if got time maybe will go visit lester bah..

p.s: pls help to click on the nuffnang ad @ the right side of my blog.ty! (:

2011-06-29T01:56:00.000+12:00

was suppose to went for modelling audition today..
but receive a call form Edgemedia said there is a pstpone of date..
so went to meet barkat and shirley instead(:
acconpanied them to sci centre for their job application..
to become a retail assistant @ the gift shop there..

waited for them for 1/2 hr....
den went to shirley house to slack..
shirley got a call after that..
her application of the job was sucessful..
congrats! must work hard liao hor (:
went home after awhile as having migrane..
shitz lurh..this few days keep actin up.
tink is lack of sleep..

reached home..
immediately went to sleep..
had a dream..haha..
kinda vivid..

it goes like this..
i was a swordwoman and there is this group of bandits..
wanted to kill me..there came a swordman to save me..LOL
in the midst of the fight..i got slash and was disfigured.
i am in love with the swordman but due to the fact of being ugly..
i left to faraway place..the swordman never give up trying to look for me..
he caught up with me finally..he told me he dun mind abt how i look..
whatter matter to him most was my personality etc..
he gave me a hug after that..
LOL..damn touching can?haha!
woke up smiling and the headache is gone..

check my phone and smile..
quickly replied msges from teck wee & jiu soon..
den ate dinner..
here i am blogging..thats all abt today(:
training @ school from 1-4 tmr (:

2011-06-27T03:40:00.000+12:00

woke up with a running nose today!ugh D:
lucky afternoon jiu okay liao..
wake up...download lion dance pics and upload in fb(:
have lunch and went to training ground after that..

reached there..clear up the place..
den use andy's com to design the shirt..
snacked on sweets again while waiting for the rest to arrive..
early dinner @ hippo after that..
den went back to train cymbal den see the twins train lion..
hmm...not bad..can see the improvement(:

training started..
practise awhile den all start to train jun yan play cymbal..
whoa..difficult task.LOL
but at least he make an effort to learn(:
den suddenly coach came..pass me the drum sticks..
ask me learn drum...
wahh..stunned =/

alamak...like difficult only..
but at least can say today is not bad le bah?
hahaz..finally learn smth new..
hope can master it soon..
den proceed to my next goal! :D
training again @ friday...

after training..
slacked awhile wid andy & teck wee..
den kena suan by samuel & weisiang..
sadded max..sigh..
5yrs of humiliation..den all started again=/
others i dun mind..
but all of you consider important people in my life lo..
yea...bo bian uh..i am ugly (Y)

all this make me think..
should i still go for Edgemedia's modelling audition on wed?
1st chance gone due to project work..
didnt expect them to call me back..
here's the second chance..should i go for it or give up leyy?
alamak~ :(

2011-06-26T14:45:00.000+12:00

went to chushi @ Haig rd todayy..
woke up early den meet andy @ macpherson MRT before goin in..
bumped into lester on the way jiu walk in together(:

reached there..
change into the clothes..wahh..1st time wear ITE lion dace clothes siol ^_^
slacked and prsctised awhile..
den teck wee came...went to huhu with andy..
all went for lunch after that..
as usual... nvr eat..
only eat the sticky sweets i bought!:P

coach came..den we proceed to haig road..
performance ended around 3 plus?
went back school den slacked before going home(:
pics @ fb...

cant wait for the next chushi..
performance @ Scape on sat! :D

2011-06-25T23:35:00.003+12:00

first thing first..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST MEI, CLARA! :D
one year older le..must hao hao study wor!
feel so bad that i cant celebrate her birthday with her this yr :(
meet up when i have the time alrite?(:
25th is always loved! TXSF (:

went to dakota to do project @ Janelle's house..
was late for 15mins..opps..
went to have lunch @ old airport rd..
den proceed to ntuc to buy the remaining ingredients~
roy came & we proceed to janelle's house..

was shocked when i reach there..
she got a dog and i am so damn scared of dogs..
but her dog quite okay uh..
haha..got licked by him..LOL! xD

tried doing all the dishes..
hmms...look quit okay but seriously..
the taste sucks D:

went home at around 5pm..
passed by the old place where Godma used to stay..
sigh..the whole block of estate is gone! =(
even the playground also change le..
so many memories flashback..

if only i can cont staying with them..
instead of this family of mine..
went home and let kelvin tried the food..
he say nice.LOL!
thats all bah..super tired..
chushi tmr! cant wait :DDDDD

2011-06-24T03:31:00.000+12:00

went for training today(:
reached there early...
si andy..mak me wait for 15mins.TMD~
slacked awhile @ cca room..
went to hippo with lester & andy after that to find samuel...
dabao food back for the rest to eat..
andy bought bacardi breezer to share!awesome (:

drank half of the bottle..
den my face jiu red le..alamak..
all say i drunk..i never okay!~
den had a discussion with those present today=/
abt the 6mth thingy..sigh..
couldnt held back my tears..
kept crying..

should not have mention it i guess?
den wun have so much prob to worry liao..
den lester & samuel jiu wun bicker =/
but lucky they make up after that!(:
training started..haha..feel so motivated (:
but so sleepy..tink cry to much=.=

got a msg from Edgemedia..
asking me to go for blogshop model casting tmr..
if suessful, can earn up to $3o/hr.OMG!
sigh..but gotta miss it due to project works..
hmms...nevermind bah..
money can slowly earn(:

went to J8 with andy after that..
had pepper lunch for dinner(:
den wait lester & samuel to come..
went to Swim @ bishan swimming complex after that..
long time since i step into that kind of place..
they swam while i took pics..
super hilarious! xD

pei them go eat dinner after that..
den slack & talk till nine..
trained home after that..

2011-06-22T20:40:00.002+12:00

ytd was a boring day..lazy undate too..
went to polyclinic ytd..check up again..
sian..more medications=/
shitz man..kip cannot sleep and wake up in the middle of the night :(

result: overslept today..lucky never late for the ceremony..
manage to reach Godma house on time..
prayed den slacked awhile..
hahaz...feel so happy to go back there again(:
6yrs living with them..now i am back again^_^
had a ctch up session with korkor..
hms...all the best in ur career in thailand!(:

so many things on my mind lately..
6mths to prove my worth to dad..
that this troupe of mine is not useless..
and that will determone whether i can still cont to lion dance anot..shag..
really hope to see great improvement from everyone..
show everyone that we can do it!(:
together as one.

went home..
super tired! jiu sleep le..
sleep for 2hrs..wake up online..
saw mr alex de comment..
rest assure..with me around i wun let this troupe die out de!
ITE college central lion dance meant to much to me..
i cant afford to lose it!~

thats all bah...

2011-06-20T17:08:00.000+12:00

woke up wth a heavy heart today..
no appetite to eat..jiu went early for training..
training from 1pm till 6pm ytd..
slacked awhile at cca room with the guys..
some saw the scar on my hand and started asking..
got a msg from him..sigh..
sorry to bring u so much pain.takecare.

couldnt control myself..
started crying..omg..paiseh..
andy & Ah soon jiu console me..
hmms..i okay de bah=/
always fine de(:

principal came & take a look at our performance..
did badly..sigh..performance got affected by me i guess?
hmms..room for improvement..
went for dinner with my troupe people @ paya lebar..
haha..ah soon say first time see me eat food.LOL

the rest went home after that..
hu-hu with andy & Teck wee before going home..
thanks teck wee for the treat & andy for acompany in the train yea(:
i guess i am fine now? so yea.thx for all the concern all of you gave(:
Love You Guys TTM! Shall regain my stadard on sunday's performance uh(:

reached home..
replied msges from ah boon, jeff, rovin, ronald, samuel, ah soon, teck wee &andy..
wahh..mulitasking siol..
online after that..
was shocked by teck wee.omg! how he find dao my profile de siol??pro pro! xD
den jiu heard some things from various people..
hmms...duno wad to say.LOL

thats all bah..
tmr will be a better day though its still hard to get over you..
fresh start new beggining~

2011-06-19T13:01:00.000+12:00

Regret saying all those words..
all i ever wanted is just for you to stay happy..
Sigh...What has become of us?
is it really the end? =(

2011-06-18T03:02:00.002+12:00

Current time:11.00pm
mood:depressed.

boy, i miss you.
ur last text"....text with you later." 4.06pm.
have been waiting to see your text..
ever since 9 plus as u said ur course end at that time..
and i am right here..staring at my phone every single sec..
hoping to see ur name appear and make me smile.
everytime i receive a msg, i always hope it is from you.
sadly, it always dissapoint me.

ever since the 11th..
i've alrdy fallen hard for you.
cant sleep when i nvr receive msg from you..
missing you so badly till i even dream of you..
cant concentrate in class..kip wondering if u are awake alrdy..
i really love you alot..but i cant help but feeling insecure abt everything..
really afraid that i will lose u any moment..
questions keep popping inside my head..
do you realli love me?how important am i really?
or are you just findin someone to pass time?
is this going to last or will it end in no time?

u said you wants a gf that could show u love..
i aint a good one..couldnt have enuf time to pei u thanks to my fking family..
and i feel bad about that..all this thoughts just filled my eyes with tears..
maybe u deserve someone better?
i promised i wun anyhow think but realli..i cant stop myself from feeling this way=/

i never wanna lose you baby..woaini.
wanna feel ur hugs that make me feel safe and secure..
hope this love never ends.
but sigh..thats all bah.

[edited]
waited & baby finally replied!happy die me (:
feel so happy to see ur text..
eventhough i might not be beside you to pei u everytime..
but my heart will always be with you (:

2011-06-17T00:24:00.002+12:00

last day of sku!(:
lesson early release den went home..
long time nvr drink tis..jiu went to buy..
went to have a good nap after that(:

finally can no nid go school for 3 weeks! :D
but holiday= no holiday liddat D:
so many assignment nid complete!nid study for test..group singing competition of national day songs with ICA.ugh.

starting from tmr till next week de busy schedule:
18-early celebration of father day
20-CCA training from 1pm till duno wad time
21- meet up with BFFs..omg last saw them i tink is 4mths ago?LOL
22-49th day of uncle papa death.nid go pray
24-meet up @ clark Quay with huiting, janelle & roy to buy ingredient for PPE project
25-trial cooking @ janelle house
26- cca performance @ Geylang Serai if not wrong.LOL

hope the week after wun be so packed..stress max!
topics to revise for test:
-Definition of child development
-reasons of studying ECD
-4 main areas of a child development
-importance of play
-benifits of play/excercise for a child
-definition of Cephalocodal & Roximodistal
-factor that affect physical development of a child
-definiton of APGAR TEST
-examples of baby reflexes
-Symtoms of teething & methods to ease the pain
- different form of voluntary reaching
-definition of motor skills
-reasons of making observation & when to make and observation
-steps of observation/observation cycle
-Records of child development
(This is only for term 1..omfg..still got term 2 to come!D:
term1 +term 2 = sept exam..omgggggggggggggg~)

lastly...
i am washin my hand off you.
not gonna care abt you anymore!~
dun come begging me for help unless u show me effort in ur studies..

thats all bah..duno wad to blog alrdy..
aww...i miss the special someone max uh =(
if only u can be beside me to cheer me up, give me the confort i want, send me long sweet msges.
oh well...at least can see ur msg i jiu contented le bah =/
shall stop here....off to study!~

2011-06-16T22:13:00.003+12:00

Had ECD test regarding play today..
hmms..can pass but dun tink can get A =/
Ms W conducted spotcheck after that..zzz!
got caught for some issues lurh..
omg man...only alter 10 cm away of my skirt..
last time say can now say can shorten t most 5cm nia.WTF lurh..
my skirt not even short lo!~

school reopen nid have another round of spotcheck...ugh!~
went to make edible play dough after that!(:
hahaha..its so fun lurh!
but everyone got flour on their shoes and all..LOL!
make smth with the dough ^_^
so proud of my art piece..hehe :P
if only thr school got oven..den jiu is edible de liao!:D

text with baby for awhile..
den he nid fall in for ndp trainin..sad die me.
oh well..shall try to be understanding bah.~
lesson till four..trained home after that..

reach home...abdomen suddenly hurts..
tink is ate too little den cause the stupid ulcer to act up.pain die me.
took the mednicine and waited for the pain to ease.
sigh. die faster better la. no nid suffer so much.
God, Please take me away. Sincerely, me~

2011-06-15T01:57:00.001+12:00

school started late today(:
good point: can sleep more^_^
bad point: end so late D:

lesson today is kinda slack...
set up play corner and discussed abt the criteria for a good toy.LOL
"best" part: no classroom to use today thanks to the ms W =.=
worse thing in school today: CE presentation.
my turn to present today..
was super nervous plus my throat is feeling very well=/
hui ting gave me a kiss.LOL. total 3 time le siol.haha*shy*

before my turn, other ppl presented topic like...
self mutilation, depression,abuse..
wahh..kinda affect me badly..mixed emotions goin thru my head =/
but see dao baby de msg giving me support cheer me up(:
went to present but halfway thru...hands start to tremble..
tink too nervous alrdy..sigh..hope the grade wun be so jialat=/

went to meet baby for awhile before going home..
sigh..i still cant seems to forget the barrier =(
keep siam him until i tink he really sad le =/
my bad~dui bu qi :(

reach home with a heavy heart..
didnt expect dad to be home early..
got scolded but fk care uh..
ate dinner alone den went to bath..
studied for tmr test after that..
nothing seems to go inside my head.i am such a dumb dumb.fk la.zzz.
shall cont to study tmr morning..

haha...suddenly baby's name pop into my head(:
jiu tot of this stated below ^_^

Nice guy i met
I miss you 24/7
Caring for me everytime
Hope love never end
Officially my baby on the 11th
Love you always
Aww..woaini
Sincerely me, Ur Baby! (:

*see the 1st letter of each phrase.. N-I-C-H-O-L-A-S! :D
Eventhough i may not be good at expressing with actions..
but i hope my words will make u happy^_^
baby aini aini ! (:

2011-06-14T20:58:00.002+12:00

didnt realli have a good sleep last night..
tink is nvr see baby's msg bah..
keep waking up to see if got his text anot =/
was suppose to wake up @ 6am...
but slept till 6.15 den wake up=.=
quickly freshen myself up and went to sku...
throat hurts badly..
now really no voice le..kip cough until no voice :(

baby called but i dint pick up..sigh..
reached class...was surprise that i am the only one that reach on time.LOL
ms toh came in and saw my lerthagic face and said..
"aiyo Eileen what happen to you?! you look so tired.not feeling well is it?"
i could barely talk...so i just nod my head..
mood was super down..throat hurts, feel feverish =/

happy to receive baby msg(:
realli make me feel alot better after receiving ur msg..love you.
went to eat...den slack at usual corner of the campus with huiting & janelle..
lessons again..was trying to stay awake..
den suddenly roy ask me & huiting" eu all until wad base liao?"
den i was like duno wad he means..after that huiting tell me the meaning.LOL
did some notes den out of sudden huiting sneak on me...
and gave me a kiss!OMG! got kiss by a gal..shy die me :P

went home after that...
hate the feeling of being sick..
buey tahan until hot tears stream down my cheeks.ugh :(
kip receving text msg...hoping it was from baby..
but sadly its a no~ oh well nvm...
thats all bah..going rest alrdy.
lucky tmr lesson starts at nine...
nervous for tmr..oral presentation. hope i get a good grade for it =/